bored

SO BORING ! hais . watching i guess i guess i guess guess guess . got 1 girl so cute . lols . talk till so farnie . hais . dunno why cant slp . zzzzzzzzz . just nw dunno why my heart suddenly very pain when doing pumping . very very pain . nearly cant breathe . maybe need go checkup le . its been happening tis few days in chinese lesson . well thats all .

BYE !

LOLS . just came back . went out with xinwei and his cousins and my mei mei and cousin . its was so funny . my cousin , mei and i managed to make xinwei smile although she did breakdwn while we are walking halfway . really didnt know wat to do . lols . then so funny ! when we at museum 1 guy farted then the smell float till our here . tamamamade ! imagine some1 farting in a musuem ?! so unglam . btw i must be fast , still have to teach that emo girl chinese . she now at living room but dunno im posting . lols . gtg

saturday again

hais . another week had past . its been 2wks and im still likdat . doushiyo ! hais . time seems to go v. slow without ur existence . still nt even 1pm .

went back to skool just nw to take my compo . well the marks is still on my expectation but can do better . then went to eat lunch at hougang with darryl , cj , clarance , kevin ....(lazy list out) . why am i still thinking about u ?! its pointless . hais . later maybe meeting xinwei , pei her . hais . why some guys dun noe hw to cherish ? hurting girls so fun meh ? so ah mei ! cheerup ! recover soon !

PS : thinking of you every moment . i really really really really mss you T.T . HAIS

HAIS . double G for me

GG la ! hais . dunno wat to say . i swear and can pat my heart that i gt . but but but . hais . result still likdat . disappointed in myself . hais , only can blame it on myself . emo on sunday and nv put in more effort which i could . but i really can't study much that day . when taking the paper my mind is really blank . HAIS ! =( its all over . there will always be an ending . well ! only thing i could do is to work hard ! no use brooding over it . OH YA ! must really thanks the chinese intensive programme ! and of course mr tan teck meng . for the overall result for this 5 days , my average is 110/140 which is 79% ! A1 ! but i could do better ! must get at least 86% . ystd my letter writing got 18/20 . kinda happy cos 2 more marks to perfect ! went out with xinwei ah meiii , jasmine and her sis ystd . to an wei xinwei . lols . then go watch ge tai . damn lot of ppl sia . she really cried alot till eye v. red and swollen . today also dropping tears . hais ! only could say cry is the fastest way to cure it . hope u be alright soon ya ! be the cheerful and retarded ah meii i know ! HAHA

it looks like u know le . thanks for ur understanding . let the past be a memory barhhs . dun wan history to repeat itself .

PS : i miss you ! so much ! how am i supposed to spend my saturday and sunday ? im really going crazy le . its been 13 days le

バカ

皆さん　! 今日は happen alot of things . hais all the sad things ! kevin i guess it correctly . lols . today really is sad day . alot ppl emo in our class . i noe its really hard not to emo when u are thinking of someone , but u still have to get over it . that someone doesnt even will give a damn to it . so wat for ? waiting for miracle ? hais !

TO yongquan : my best friend , anything tell me =) dun bottle all up in ur heart ! i will always stand by u ! BEST FRIEND 4eva k ? :) somemore u are the 1st friend i made in tis skool ! hahas cheerup =)

TO jas : lols . farnie lei u , u think u will so suay ?

TO xinwei : ahh mei ! cheerup k :) still got alot of chance de =) why cry over him when he dun even give a damn ? waste ur tears . must drink more water k ? lols replenish ur water in ur body cos u lost alot of tears le .

TO kevin : lols dun emo le ! today can see you really emo . 1st time wor ! hahas ! we are on the same boat

PS : 私わ本とにバカ　。hais . just stay happy and it will be enough for me .

POCKY !

and today i won myself another pocky ! won darryl both paper 1 and 2 . well i could say im contented with the marks . at least all tgt is an a1 . contented but not happy . got fuck up by dean and francis . teach them chinese will kill me . but i start liking the intensive programme ! WOOT ! JY ! HAIS ! srsly heaven screw you ! hais . should i accept and get a new life or continue waiting ? each day the hope seems to be getting smaller and smaller . really tired of pretending that im alright , laughing everyday and looks joyous . heaven ! stop making sport of me .

PS : 前にしたあなたすき私和ですか？

completely lost of confidence

hais ! another failure . crap la ! whole mid yr like KNS ! hais ! i can pat my heart and swear that i did put in lots and lots of effort on mid year . but why will likdat ?! HAIS ! maybe im too complacent ! HAIS ! talk about something happy barhhs . lols ystd chinese paper i managed to get the class highest . but felt that its nth cos the marks is nt that fanatastic too . and my rivals nv unleash their potential also . hope today my paper could do well too , kinda have confidence . YOSH ! gotta put my heart down on chinese ! have to get A1 ! hais . dunno why nowadays my heart will suddenly become very pain , even when walking , pain till can't even breathe . issit emotionally pain or physically pain ? 为什么会这样? 我好想你! IM SO TIRED ! have to act in class that i dun give a damn but my heart really hurts !

PS : 好怀念以前 ! 一切都来的太突然 . 我好想你 ! 我可以放弃忘记你吗 ? 真的好痛 T.T

confusion

im in a state of confusion now ! wat should i do ? accept it or avoid it ? well , i dont really noe wat i should do ! maybe heaven is testing me ? hahas forget bout it ! OMG ! today i felt so weird . although i felt confident that i would do well in todays chinese mock exam =) the number part i gt 20 while many others only 10+ . so ya ! hehes ! hope in o'lvl i could maintain my standard and improve ! WOOT ! im gonna strive on ! hais , felt weird about kip smsing you , the attraction seems to disappear . the feeling had also gone . perhaps i'd gotten over you since i have fallen for another person . SORRY ! im nt good for you =( hahas ! but anything u still can look for me ! always here for you !

PS : waiting and waiting . miracle pls appear ! hais . onegaijimasu ! anyway i don expect much , just wish everything could be like b4 . recover soon !

felt recharged

WAHAHAHAHAS ! im back ! wat a busy day . went for jogging in the morning . then met karwong , zankai and kevin for badminton . took the wrong side bus and in the end , we took cab and i pay =.= . here comes the ironical part . when we arrive and went to the cc office , the damn staff said i didnt pay and some1 book it already ! goddamn it ! hais , then we took 81 to kovan and played pool . WAHAHAHAS ! i won all of them in our own "tournament" . finally today i didnt miss her alot . then kevin sibei bu shuang and 1v1 me . and i lose by 1 ball ! HAIS ! lols sibei taiko . =x
after we finished , karwong went home 1st to have his dinner , and i kevin and zankai went to NEW YORK to have our dinner ! OMG ! so ex . talk lots of craps during our dinner!!! and i saw ANG YILIN and her mom . STALKER ! still msg me say i everytime stalk her . LOLS . really enjoyed our msg spree today ! but hw i wish the ppl could change . hais !

To ang yilin : lols , im nt that good as you think , but maybe the 26 yrs old pact may come true =)

PS : watashiwa aishiteru .

Saturdae ( by Tsuji Nozomi)

wake up at 9 today . went to see my phone and hope for miracle . but apparently miracle doesnt appear . then went to anchorvale cc macdonald with my family to have breakfast . damn malu ! when im taking the drinks and cont walking , then suddenly 1 cup of milo drop . OMG ! i stand dere like so shock cos nv drop anything b4 . then that woman was stained with milo . hais , so guilty and i kept apologising . lucky she was gracious enough to forgive me =) such a understanding person . and reached home and slp agn . HAIS ! there was nothing for me to look forward anymore . life seems boring and left study .

PS : March 31 , the feeling started . everything seemed like a dream to me
April 15 , the 1st promised was made
May 1-3 , it was the happiest days in my whole life
May 7 , the 1st worst argument
May 8 , you forgived me and i felt loved and some1 actually worried about me
May 9 , u said u wont leave me alone and it wont happen
May 10 , u said u are worried i cant sms u
May 11 , u said u miss me
May 12 , i broke the promise i made
May 13 , tired but happy
May 14 , felt so bliss
May 15 , made u angry again but u still forgived me
May 16 , felt so happy as can see u for hours , but this is also the last day u talk to me .

May 16 - 23 , the dream ended T.T . ANATAWA HONTO NI BAKA ! watashiwa honto
daisuki na . how i wish time could turn back .

HAPPY

hahas . finally i'd been happy since like for centuries . maybe the heaven had begun to take pity on me . everything went quite smoothly for today except for Eng . fail by 1 marks . and my history nv get A bcos of that 1 marks . perhaps teachers were right , im getting too complacent ! nvm , afterall wat pass had passed . i swear i gonna buck up real hard ! hoping to get all b's and A's for chinese and combined humanities !
POOR me , got rape 3x today for being to guai lan . lols cant be hlp , afterall that my forte =) hehes !
really enjoyed being with you even for that few moment . felt really contented . im happy as long as you are happy =)

hahas gtg !
attending 2T1 concert .
zao ar !






OK . back from concert . arghx ! so tired ! today concert was sure a boring but fun one . specially the last moment which nearly made me cry . 1st time then know mdm lim is so nice =) . after that went River mall to have dinner with jo , kw , ashley , shuhao , yixiang and darren . walk till my leg blister . stupid havaianas slipper ! kao ! sat with shuhao , yixiang and ashley . hahas had a great talk and ashley forced me to finish my meal even when im full . worse then my mother =x lols .

PS : sorry . how i wish time could turn back . hais , im happy as long as you happy !

tired le , tmr gg jogging with family !
nights =)

another dissapointment

hais . been crying tis few days. as expected today is another battle . went to skool as per normal and thinking about her . and here comes the battle ! chinese - B3 , maths fail , combined human c5 (thanks to ss) . and i felt most dissapointed is chemistry . this is the subject i prepared the most and felt most confident in . but still fail . dunno wat im doin tis few days . HAIS ! my result totally sucks . GOTTA CHIONG DURING HOLIDAY LE ! 11 more days to chinese Olvl . hais felt so unprepared . chinese had nt been improving since tis yr . in my whole life i nv had gt B3 for my CL b4 . nvm ! just gotta work hard . then went compass wif yong quan da ge to cut hair and makan . his hair damn cool ! like those japanese yakuza(gangster) but he kept saying that his hair is v. short . then had some man's talk while waiting for bus , after speaking to him i felt better =) thanks man !

PS : letting go is really v. painful . but perhaps thats the only choice i have . felt so tired . finally understood yong quan feeling . we are on the same boat full of holes .

to YILIN : wei wei dun sad le la ! hahas ! is the guy dunno hw to cherish you . not forgetting we our 26 yrs old pact uhs ! perhaps tomorrow call you then tell me wat happen okay ? HAHAS ! smile more =) always there for you ! JY !

GTG jogging agn le
everybody goodluck !

agony

well . started with oral 1st . everything went pretty well . teacher say i had spoke fluently and have those slag accent . did i ? perhaps . after that rushed home to take a bath and change cause meeting xinwei and jasmine at compass . LOL rushed like fark , stupid ah mei keep call me faster faster . then reached cp around 11.05 , late by 5 mins ! well , it cant be hlp . when i reached , they are at kopitiam eating . wtf , rushed dere still nid wait them eat finish . joke ! Then took a train dwn to clarke quay , went to STICKY to buy lollipop . and we went to japanese restaurant to eat . omg ! so yummy, oiiiiishhiii desu ! then raph meet us liao went walk here walk dere then go starbucks buy coffee . zzz broke liao . maybe i will feel happier this way . forgetting you semmed impossible .

PS : perhaps u dun have to know what i mean , because theres no nid for u to know . just go for your love . sorry for making u angry all the time . hais

gtg for jogging .
minna sayounara

MYE FINISH !

phew . finally another major examination had ended . didnt prepared much for it except for science . went to have breakfast wif kevin and cj , and it was damn funny ! we are the only punggol ppl out of the whole damn macdonald . at first when we go in , saw lots of chio bu ! OMG but in the end sitted beside a grp of CMI girls . damn funny is when the indian girl let down her hair , her friend say looks like KOREAN ! WTF !!! maybe a black version uhs ? and we quickly zao aft finishing . buay tahan keep laughing .

Later meeting xinwei ah mei and jasmine eat . and kevin is still at my room playing dota . =.=

PS : after 60hrs u are still ignoring me . IM really going crazy ! all u had said to me is a lie or its just a dream , or maybe its just one sided and i think too much ? SORRY ! DUN IGNORE ME ! im willing to do anything to amend for wat i'd done ! JUST TELL ME WAT TO DO . T.T

on the verge of breaking down

AAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHXXXXX !!! everything seems screw up . think i would did badly for my MYE for tis wk . cant think of a single shit with my mind thinking about you . life seems cold without you . nothing can describe my feelings now . its may seem stupid but its really hard not to get stupid . u know how much it hurts when u call me not to bother u . its as if im a nuisance to you . just wan you to cheer up . it hurts me to see u so sad and tired but i cant do a single shit . maybe im nt a person who have gullible mouth and know hw to make you happy . sorry T.T

how i wish my tears could flow away with my love for you . but that seems impossible . T.T

ANATAWA HONTO NI BAKA . gomenasai !

ZZZZZZZZZz

hais . bad evening . went marine parade with my retarded mei and family . throughout the trip is so boring . HAIS . bad things happened too . 4eva my fault .

PS : cj my mei want the book . so try to read as fast as u can =) hahas ty .

GAY alarm alerted

wahahahahas . lols . just woke up and played dota . like going to rain , sian like that jiu cannot go out .
ystd cj come my house study and stay . OMG . . . . . . lols and i remembered some1 say im a gay ! DIE DIE DIE .
LOLS jkjk .

thats all la . gg eat breakfast with cj da ge .

BB

FRIDAY !

ohmygod ! finally friday . have been deprived from slp nowadays . s0 tired !
its was a short day today , exam till 10.30 then went to compass with many ppl(lazy to list out) .
then go foodcourt makan cos i and cj dage tired of fast food! then search for the tasty food !
after that walk here walk there and i make ppl angry(dun angry le uhs!) =( god im so irritating !

SORRY !

thats all for tdy . going slp . so tired !


OH YA ! omg ! ive been so out dated ! busying with my exam and i din knew morning musume 39th single is out ! Shouganai Yume Oibito ! another nice compilation

TIRED

Just realised i got a blog . although its really dull . nvm la , simple is nice . i supposed i really hope that everything could turn back to the past , where i could enjoy myself with my few really good buddies . perhaps my attitude had changed , seems that tis type of brotherhood had turned plain . everyone seems to hate me .

miss the days we had fun playing basketball , where i could laugh the hell out although i suck at playing it . but perhaps , too much things had happened , and i really dun noe why i hate you and perhaps u had realised it . u know how it really hurt when i discover that u had backstab me ? u are one of my best friend but , nvm its the past .

im really sorry , i dun wish to hate u and i really missed the times we once had , playing basketball , gossiping and going out . but perhaps this will not come back until i could get over her . HAIS .