しょうがない夢追い人 (hopeless dream chaser)

its 4 nw, and i still cant fall aslp..... there's something i really do not understand and cant let go.... just wat the hell is wrong with me?! really dunno wat should i do. arrrgghhxx!!! am gg bonker soon... just cant slp everyday, maybe its insomnia... am really really tired, even with a few hr of slp, i still can stay up till so late.... still had to work tmrw, luckily its the last day... well, work had been smooth, except for have to stand for very long... quite slack actually, only have to time the contestants and hlp to set up the tables... only have to work to keep myself occupied.. well, a doctor can only cure others but nt itself, so true... had consoled so many ppl but nt myself, i should had knew tis would fall upon but why am i so stupid to commit so much, in the end, only for a word HATE .. 私わ本とにバカ, i still rmb till now..



PS : sorry. hope u had enjoy ur show.

ZOMBIELIKE

music nw : Kimagure(fickle) Princess - Morning Musume

damn tired !!!! just wokeup and ate my breakfast ^^ ohhh, should be lunch though.. had a bad dream abt something, dunwanna say abt it, pointless. well, ystd was fun though ^^ its so relaxing to stay at the beach for hours and had fun with friends... wish that we could stay in touch till the day we die(: then bought 5 bottle of baron plus heineken .... SO SHIOK ! to drink with friends. haha, but some1 is drunk.. although i dunno wht thing, but cheerup alright ;D everything would be fine my best friend. hahaha. had gone through lot of thinking during my stay at my aunt house, but it just doesnt make any sense to me ... welllll, thatsssss alll ^^ gotta bathe and go yufei house le. HAPPY BIRTHDAY once again . haha




PS : well, if u dun fucking believe it its ur problem. if u treat it all as a lie to you, i also cant do anything. i had said what i've said, and i told myself nv believe in you ever, for its been the 2nd time. once bitten twice shy. if u said i had lied to you, perhaps it pot calling the kettle black .. u had done the same to me too . seeing ur blog fucking piss me off only... i swear those thing would nt affect me ever again, for im tired of it .

HOLIDAY IS SOOO BORED !!

had been bored for dunno hw many days.. finally tmrw gt bbq ^^ saviour to my boredoom... then thursday yufei bday party ... BUT friday saturday sunday working at suntec. gt dunno wat sudoku competition then dunno go there do wat de .. lol, nvm la, gt money jiu good le;x hw practical am i huh?? hahahahaha . damn crap, had used to slp late le, nw cannot slp but tired Z.Z

numbed

awwww, damn it..... my left eye is swollen.. damn irritating !!! ystd suddenly felt something pain and itchy and who eye became red. tot maybe is lack of slp or something likdat... but tdy morning it became swollen ... damnnn crappppp ..... tdy slpt till 3plus den wake up, still feel tired, maybe last few days was otw till damn late and woke up real early ... felt so weird tis few days, used to slp late but nth to do.... staring in the sky and stoning. . . . . anyway, went compass and meet up with her to take back my mp3 . dunno why, really wanna see her badly for no reason and recalled that night where i asked her to hlp me keep my mp3 ... crap, gotta stop it ... then waited for bus to parkway parade to meet my family for dinner.... had some talk b4 heading home and watch i guess ... and here i am blogging, suddenly feel a urge to do it ... well i supposed that all for tdy, had to slp early and hope tmrw is a fresh day ^^




PS : maybe i had lied to u alot and gave u empty promises, but it was all unitentionally due to circumstances. hw i wish u could put urself in my shoes and think in my view. but i supposed it isint impt anymore eh ?? slp earlier and takecare, especially u are sick nw, maybe u cant see it nor even bother to come here .. but its okay, for everything is over and im moving on just like i had once did. really thank for that night, really feel that im the most happiest person and felt loved, although it all lies, but in doesnt matter.. hope u will find a better one who will cherish u ^^

just nw went prime there eat .. then got malay gang want tio me.. was quite scared actually .. hahahaha.. they arnd 20ppl likdat while i was only with yx,jl,ck and dean . hahaha. want call ppl dwn also too late.. then also lan lan jiu say sorry to a chinese de .... then aft that they call us go carpark talk, but lucky police came dwn ... HAHAHA saviour of our life ^^ well, think thats all le ba? anyway, some1 called me to post about her ..... so bhb right her ?;x hahahaha, dun angry :P well, only description is she is very black and tall . still say want bring her tamil gang go surround my bro . hahahaha, nvm i shall see who win ^^ anyway, just broke up with her i suppose, although she nv official say wan. but nvm la, maybe thats it.... although prom night is a memorable night for me, but i guess will just treat it as a dream ? a dream i suppose i wont forgt in my whole life . that night is my happiest night . maybe u are right in ur blog, im not over her yet, but i lied that i had . still cant delete her 1000+ msges, i really dunno why.. the night b4 prom i still rather delete ur msg than to delete hers ... maybe we 2 just doesnt dun suit each other, when ur heart still have him while i still have her . well, just wanna wish u all the best and go for it if u really like him . he's better than me 1000+ time .... give u my blessing ^^ afterall, its nt the 1st time u hurt me so nvm ... hahahahas, takecare ...



PS : long enough ma ?? or u want me type somemore for u to read ?;X hahahaha

TIRED !

just woke up. just too tired, only really slp for that few minutes.... anyway ystd prom was a disastrous one. dancing nearly became a fight with 4T. at night went out to clarke quay,plaza singapura with dar dar. although its tiring but i felt happy. u look good ystd (: but at night was a chaos.. dun wish to say about it, PISSED is the only word to describe it.... hope everything would be fine just like 2days ago..




PS : sorry to keep msging her, i finally understand hw it feels when u did the same to me. let continue k ? SORRY !

Prom !?

tmrw prom le, dunno why dun quite looking forward to it. im damn pissed nw. enuf of it. everytime say i bcos of woman quarrel with u but u are the one who bring it up 1st . ok its my fault to give her but i cant reject her. u can ask her, starting she ask me i gt say no. but i believe. in tis world out of 10 guy, if a girl cried and ask u for something, im sure 8 will acceed to their request even it is wrong. if u say im wrong, then that day u blow into her lift and let her breathe 2nd hand, arent u worse than me ? abandon her and left for other gal no matter hw much she love you? but i gt say anything?? bcos u are my 4yr friend. u still wan suan zhang with me.. and 4yr it seems that u really dun understand me much ehh? srsly i didnt think i had change much but as for u, there are many ppl said u had changed but i still regard u as a impt person to me. but maybe it isint anymore, u are the one who bcos of her quarrel with me. forgt it


PS : promise me to stay happy alright

happy birthday zice .

HAHA, i wanna wish zice swt 16 ^^ all the best for nxt yr olvl though .. well life continued freshly, went to compass then to orchard . bought nth cos no money. lmao its was a joke . then went to changi airport to fetch my mei ... was expecting to see some chio bu but so disappointing there wa none ;X HAHA . will be living at my aunt house cos my mei ask me to pei her . LOL . and here i am typing ..... well tdy felt better, more hyper but the tiredness began to wear me dwn. although pass 2 days had only been slping for 2-4 hrs, but i dun feel tired .. but nw ... soooo tired . HAHA guess thats all for tdy ^^


PS : thanks for everything, the motivation and encouragment u gave me. u pulled my through the dark and olvl. i will nv forgt it .. well it seems that olvl is gone, and maybe we will nt be contacting each other soon i guess, but if u want, i wont mind(: just hope u to stay happy and cheerful forever ^^

happy bday ash !

started off with a drenching day. wokeup at 7 and hlp my father . slpt for 2hr nia then walk like a zombie likdat . dunno why time really flew when gt thing keep me occupied. Had lunch with my father after that proceeded to meet yx. really must thanks him though, for pei-ing me although we didnt even talk for that 1hr plus .. just sat there and stone, then yq came to find us . still cont nt toking for that few hours .... met up with clarance they all later part and had western . yx ask me pei him eat then jiu eat and eat and eat .. spend abt 30-40 tdy buying things to eat . then went arcade but .. bought pocky, chocolate, 1 big lollipop with light, 4 green tea, 1 ice mountain, 2 medium pepsi, 1 ice milo and fish&chip . then went to 'relax' at sculpture park b4 gg to ashley house and celebrate her birhtday . it was fun though, poor ashley;x then took a cab home and had a anti-pap tok with that taxi driver .. he still treat me $1 cos nt enuf .. kay den, thats all for tdy

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sorry for the late update ! thanks yufei for reminding me ;X hehe .... Olvl had completed 90 percent . left with chinese and science mcq for us . nxt impt thing is prom night . dunno why for some reason i dun wish to go ......... doesnt seems to interest me .