sorry :(

todday was a bad bad day . GRR CRAP ! although i seemed fine but i wasnt ... dunno why cant control my temper today . dulan with zankai for trivial matter and when was raped by yq , i really was damn pissed but tried to cool myself dwn by laughing . and it works . HAIS ! siannnnnnn ... make her angry again , for not being understanding .　私輪本とにバカ！すいません！

PS : SORRY !

yAWNNN !

today was such an boring day . luckily no english !! lols nv do hmwk =x . whole day smsing with ppl to pass the time . LOL . nothing to say . well that's all =) JA NE



zzzz . finally finished SS and online vocab . zzzzzzz im missing you now !! just now msn you you say you busying . felt really sad :( although i know both of us are really busy but i just cant hlp . hahas . but you are forgiven since you apologize =D . i really miss YOU . i miss YOU . i miss YOU !!!!!! must takecare HOR !! :D

yAWNNN !

today was such an boring day . luckily no english !! lols nv do hmwk =x . whole day smsing with ppl to pass the time . LOL . nothing to say . well that's all =) JA NE

Nanchatte renai in AUGUST

wahahahahas . im back agn . lols . still waiting for the 39th single Shouganai yume oibito to release in HMV . so damn slow la . tdy is the last day of hols , bet will be damn hectic when term 3 start . well . jsut have to bite our teeth tightly and finish olvl ! JY . woke up at 2pm and watched tv and ate you tiao and beancurd . hahas . then had been using com till now . GOD ! 4 must chiong ENGLISH LE !!!!! so thats all ! hahas .

270609

its good that accept it . felt so relieve now . maybe its better this way . hahas ! dear i will miss you de ! even though we are far apart and different skool . hahas . but promise will find time to go find you and meet yea ! JY tgt for O's barrhs ^^ . ILY !

Dilema

short post for today . well . dunno wat to say . its like miracle that it happens . its just like fate and its really unbelievable ? hais . should i wait or accept a chance that heaven gives ? crap ....................


PS : what should i do ??????

current energy level : 3%

0mg ! SO TIRED !!! TONING THE WHOLE DAMN NIGHT WITH jephthah , yuting , yuzhen , liting , isabel > all pri skool friend and christ(liting bf) , serene(Balestier Hill sec) , nicky , joanna , dan and lots of ppl > outsider from BHSS . went to bugis and bought itouch for liting then headed straight to chalet . it was like raining and its so hard to get the fire start up . the damn charcoal just dun burn . but in the end , we still won and started bbqing . im was like damn high and kept laughing . LOL ... lost 3bucks in black jack as we were playing like 1 round 2buck so not bad larhhs . hahas . at 12 it was officially liting birthday and we was lighting the candle but it was still raining and everyone was like keep protecting the cake .. and blah blah blah we sang the bday song . here comes the fun part . i bought lots and lots of popper and bomb bag and went about to scare ppl . threw 1 bomb bag to isabel but it din explode . then she was like dun care cos she tot it wont explode . then i kick the bomb bag away and it explode . lols . she was scared till the cake drop . wahahahahahas ! then we talk about ghost story then again pillow fight then play "the name game" it was fun but tiring though . hahas . then went to macdonald and ate breakfast then headed back to the chalet again . yuting,delis and isabel slp on 1 bed . liting with his bf and i slp with serene and yuzhen . but jephthah 1 person slp on the whole bed by himself . lols ! and his snoring was like so damn funny and kept us awake . then went to WILD WILD WET at 9 till 1+ and i got sunburnt again . it was like so freaking HOT . so yea . my story had ended and its time to sleep and recharged . BB ! oh ya . i created one word . DELL ! DUN EMO LIAO LA . know its lame . lols

OTANJOBUUUUUUU GEITO LITING

wahahahahaS ! happy bday liting . just reached home . gotta go out soon ! gg bugis buy present for liting then go chalet at pasir ris . looking forward to have fun with yuting and liting they all . all is as crazy as me . my 7-11 yr friend ! hahas !!!!!!!! yea . have to keep myself busy ! must get her out of my mind ! I CAN DO IT ! no point making myself to suffer in pain and she dun give a damn . right ? YOSSH !!!!!! shall post tmr when i come back .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GUYS

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHENG HAN , SHAUN , GERALD HENG , MACRINA AND YIXIANG ! well , for today thats the only happy part . feeling worse now . seeing things i did not wished to see . just had to bear with it and act nothing had happen and remain cheerful for the damn whole night . forgt about it . just had to let go . how am i going to persevere . everyday had to act cheerful and happy even when im really feeling down , just to let u guys see that im strong and act like i dun give a shit . but down in my heart i do . forget about it . kan kai yi dian ba . after a sleep tomorrow would be a brand new day :) STAY STRONG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS : its 1am now . saw something really funny ! lols . jun jun wanted to work in a bread shop cos leftover can bring home and eat cos she love to eat . but kamei chose to work as a construction worker cos she love helmet and drilling holes .WAHAHAHAHAS . KAMEI BANZAI !

heres the conversation :
Eri : That, that! I want that! (Hand gestures)
Gaki-san : What?
Sayu : Ah, ah! I got it! You want to be a construction worker?
Eri : Yes yes! That!
Reina & Gaki-san : EHH?!
Reina : You're a GIRL.
Sayu : You're just being random right?
Gaki-san : But yes, whenever we talk about part-time jobs, jobs like cashiers, and those that goes "It'll be 100yen for my smile"..ah no, not 100yen, 0yen!
Eri : That's expensive (The smiling service is usually free, no charge)
Gaki-san : Yes, not many people will think of jobs like being a construction worker.
Eri : I want to wear the helmet and--
Sayu : Eww
Gaki-san : But if Eri works as a construction worker she is bound to mess up her job.
Eri : (lol)

MM 40th single out in august !

wahahahahas ! MM single will be out in august 2nd . Nachatte Renai if im not wrong =) looking forward ! will be a short post cos gg out till probably night . meeting my cousin to cut hair at woodland cos his friend intro de . should be okay de barhhs . then will be going to source for 39th single SHOUGANAI YUME OIBITO at city hall or orchard . hahas ! pocket gonna burn one hole liao . then later meeting my sis for movie at 8.30 at plaza sing . so probably wont be updating till tomorrow . so ya ! gotta keep myself busying so as to not to think about her .... JA NE !

すっごい

finally friday !!　几爽一下 :) today dnt was another boring lesson !! zzzzz ...... but i nv sleep . lols . did 1 ideation then go do pratical . finally finish all the boxes . lols . then today went for the CL oral . i got improve ! WAHAHAHAHAS ! from 27 marks to 34 marks . big improvement !! hehes . k la . felt so fatigued . as usual . she's hot and cold . zzz . maybe its really pointless . NVM LA ! NOT GONNA GIVE UP :) !!!!!!!!!!!!!



PS : u okay ? cheerup kk :)

plan failed

my plan failed today . due to yeezheng . maybe he is trying to help me . hope he is right . wished that i had made the right choice of not leaving that cold place . have to see wat will happen 1st .. well today time flies . with yongquan at there pei us . lols to be exact we trick him there as he meet us for lunch . and i slept for around 1hour again . lols . its so tiring and hot outside the room . will be finishing the box tomorrow ! although its quite slow but i think i can finish it ! yea . thats all . got to go ........


PS : CHEERUP YA :) although theres nothing much i could do to make you happy .... but i could always be by ur side when u need me ...

met mom for dinner . finally felt cared for . thanks mom :) just now ordered 4piece of chicken wing and ate 3 pieces . but my mom cant resist the temptation and ate 1 even she had sore throat . lols . i ask her sore throat still eat ? she replied "aiyah . eat finish first then say" . joke .... and i was frightened by a cat . lols . damn paiseh cos i scared out of my chair and is like ppl behind me is looking at me . LOL . and that damn cat keep stay below of my chair .

stressed

i really cant take it anymore !! arghhhhhhhx ! its so cold . so cold that i dun feel any warmth here anymore . do u seriously i will lie to u about where i go ? i just fell aslp on bus i nv realised my hp rang and u say i deliberately dun wanna pick up ur call . and for goddamn it .. take public transport also need time right ? u said u can reached woodland from here by 1h15mins ? craps . u mean u drive there by car ba ? even if u take 965 from sengkang interchange u also cant reach there by 1hr15mins . take train also impossible .. called home ask bro got cook anot he said no1 at home . so i called mom informing her im eating outside . and u called and i also told you about im eating outside . u said u are meeting sis to have dinner but did u inform me ? NO . im the last to know . and you are the one who said ok and allow me to go . do u even know how tired i am after that ? CRAP !!! u are the one who do not trust me and even stalked me on where i go to see whether i got bluff u anot . and u said u treat me better then bro ?? i tried to earn ur trust and sis too . but u all are just .. ARRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHXXX !!!!!!! u make it like all is my fault when im not in fault . term 1 when i did quite well did u really encourage me ? u just felt its my part . mid year i just met with some setback and both of you did not even ask a single shit of my life . just about my damn result . cmon , u have the eyes to see that im studying really really hard during that time . if u really feel that joey is ur hope .. then place all ur hope on her then . sorry to dissapoint you . but im just felt really tired .. of all that shit ! when i stay at xiao gu house . i felt really cared for . thats the warmth i wanted . from today onwards . im not going to cry ... NO MORE !!!!!!!!!

やばい

got another shit again . not gonna talk about it . u think i'd change so be it . not gonna make myself upset over such a trivial matter . hais . just now went down saw 2 boys with their parents . heard them saying going east coast roller skating . such a blissful family . where their parent could even take time out and bring them to east coast at late night . anyway today was another normal day . doing pratical and coursework . realised i'd only done 9 ideation so 1 more to go :) ! lols . wanna ask teacher question then lie on the table infront of mama lim till fall asleep . lols ! joke ... then i wake up and went back to my bench and sleep again .. till 5 then wake up .! felt so energetic . hahahahas . just now went for a jog but still cant break my own record . nvm la . just wanna keep fit and slim down ! got abit spare tyre now le .. zzz . gotta go ! DINNER TIME !


PS : 只是想不到回是这样 . 但是只要你开心就好 , 因为我只想你开心 :)

back from basketball

ohmygod ! didnt realised i nv post ystd ... so that wat happened ystd ....

SUNDAY : went to suntec with my retarded mei mei and cousin(dean) .. had lots of fun with them and my retarded mei just kinda make me laugh with her retardness .. she kinda like someone . sua .. my mei bought an itouch 8gb $388which is like so expensive then my cousin bought a samsung mp4 which is quite cool !!!! had lots lots of food and like nv shop . then went on food hunting for dinner but in the end ate mac cos tooo hungry till lazy pick ....... had a MCSPICY MEAL UPSIZE then a milo mcflurry . yummy ! then after that bought a YAMI yogurt and i chose lots of peanuts for my side orders . ohmygod my cousin ordered medium which is like SO big and i just bought a regular one . then went to my aunt house to charge mp4 :) , and slack till 9 ! their house just have a warmth and cosy feeling . and from kallang ii went all the way to rivervale mall to buy takoyaki and a medium coke then went to my erjie house ! LOLS so fattening ... so ya . roughly thats all . OH YA ! CONGRATS XINWEI !! for getting a bronze in taekwando competition . i wont dare to bully you again le .. lols . later u kik me to johor bahru ...

TODAY : wake up early in the morning i chk my phone ! WTF i charge the whole night using pc and the battery from 60% de-charge till 19% .. _l_ . zzzzz . luckily my psp and mp4 is fully charged .. then blast my song till max all the way to skool .. so SONG ! JPOP RULES !! and saw kevin then he ask me wheres my dnt file . LOL . then i realised i forgot to bring . luckily MAMA LIM is kind enough to forgive me cos i nv bring my 10 IDEATION . ARIGATOU !! did pratical the whole day and had a reek of wood and rust smell . gosh !!! then went to KFC and ate with CJ and kevin and i ordered zinger meal and a one piece chicken snackers . im getting fatter and fatter ... that what i wished ! then rushed back to dnt but mama lim went see doctor so we are free ! GET WELL SOON UHS MAMA LIM ! :) . continue my pratical and kept slacking . hahas . hope sylvia and CJ will resolve the misunderstanding soon ! goodluck :)

PS : decided on persevering !

一波未平一波又起

for goddamn it . u dun have to criticize me . i had told you im fine and u gave me all the crap shit in the middle of the night . i have the freedom to say wat i want and do wat i want . but did u express ur concern for me other than reading my blog to know wat the hell is happening to me . just wanted to settle it on my own and not let u worry . am i in fault like this ? and u said im like bro . god crap ! i noe what im doing ... im old enough to settle things my own . not like a children anymore or tell you everything about me . everyone had their own problems that they dunn wanna say . isint it ? and if like that u are going to have a cold war with me , im really fine with it . really . cos i feel that im nt in the wrong... i always tot u are the only 1 who understand me the most , always there for me when i needed some1 . console me when im down . but now it doesnt seemed to be happening . but it seems that im wrong ...... so wrong . or perhaps i'd changed . just let me cool down for awhile ! i need time to get over it ....... felt so weak and tired ...

FEELING LOW

what is happening to me . just what is happening to me . acting like i dun care is really tiring the hell out of me . DOUSHIYO ! thinking i can get over it , but i failed once and once . my confidence is really draining all my energy . thinking i could persevere like i did last time had proved me wrong ..... so wrong .. i no longer had the energy to persevere . is there really what u sow and u will reap from it ? will it really bear fruits ? its so tiring !!!! but i simply cant . my mind will just show the same images again and again . like never ending ! hais . GOD END IT PLS ! STOP MAKING ME SUFFERING .........


as usual a boring day . went to suki sushi and ate lunch with gangs . and run back to dnt ! LOLS ! eat full full run . pathetic sia . then went to have lunch with natalia and vivian , yixiang pangseh me . knn ! luckily when we reached there saw jermyn and junliang . lols then i jio dean come . so not that weird . LOLS got lots of jokes from dean sia . sibei racist and gossip . lols vivian and natalia lose liao . 3 gu 6 po lose liao . OWN ! then went starbucks with natalia and vivian to slack . dun wish to go home . but it's worse . saw something i dun wish to see but i still saw . maybe its fate . wateva la . then kevin and zankai came to meet us and had some talks then finally left compass point and went to play basketball . well i today sort of on form today . then took cab home . suddenly heart pain agn . HAIS ! maybe its my retribution . thats why god is doing all this shit to me ... hais . tired le . gtg ! hoping miracle would happen tmr . maybe heaven would take pity on me and miracle would happen ?! "BRRRRRRIIINKKK" !

PS . ILY

BYE DNT COURSEWORK

woot ! finish dnt coursework le . sooo happy ! started on the pratical . although its damn tiring and hot ! zzzz ! well . afterall its still quite interesting , abled to breathe that dusty wood smell again . today is quite boring for history , watched a video for 40 mins plus . then went to have lunch with lots of ppl . then went rm with darryl and ashley . bought choky ! LOL wth ! mao pai huo of pocky ! but nvm la . its BIG ! lols ! gtg jogging and chiong homework le !! wish me goodluck :) BYE !


PS : 一切都尽在一言中 . 伤心也不能挽回一前开心的一切 .请原谅我没有这个勇气 . 应为我一直认为我不够好.　でも　。私わ本とに愛してるです　！でも　手遅れだ　！私の本とにバカ！

puzzled

felt that this world is made up of many puzzled . u had to find the right piece to solve the puzzle . after fixing this puzzle , u will feel very happy and blissed . but during the process , its frustrating and tiring . dunno why im saying this . just thought of it . today i did some bastard act . i know its my fault . didnt know it was a gift by ur mother . if me i also will angry . that why i didnt resist . partly was also to keep my promise not to fight anymore .

today dnt happened some damn funny scenario ! today i called shu hao 人儒(short and fat) . lols then we keep running round and round in the class . then i jiu xialan him , trying to squeeze thorugh the table and chair which was very near to each other . then i call him see and i passed the table and chair easily . then he laughed and came to chase me ! then i run and he tried to squeeze thorugh it too . but he failed and knock onto the chair ! LOL !!! then he dun give up again . then again i passed the chair easily again . then 2nd time he also cant pass ! then the 3rd time he nearly fall ! WAHAHAHAHAS ! i kept laughing and gave up . LOL !! and got hit by him for 3 time . and im still laughing ! LOL ! then clarance say zankai is mama shop then kevin is shopping mall . LOL then i change it . shuhao is mama shop . zankai is ntuc fairprice . then kevin is GIANT supermart . WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS ! and i got whack by kevin again . so farnie ! then today played basketball after skool for awhile . then i and clarance resting . then when kevin sitting down he burp at clarance . LOL then clarance fart at him ! WTF joker . lols . then clarance and i fart and darren while he is eating shark fin !! WAHAHAHAS ! joke . gtg . stop here

PS : get well soon :)

Dreadful

haiss ... gtg soon . so short post :) sad sad sad ! today my deadline is really dead ! arrghhx . reality did realised . lols although not that worse . today jasmine nv come , no1 seat beside me felt so weird . hahas .then watch 13 days ! so exciting but didint managed to finished it . nv even eat lunch cos of that ! hais . really hate myself for being so coward ! crap .... gtg !!!! DINNER !!!! RAWWWWR ! GTG BUCK UP FOR EVERYTHING ! I CAN DO IT !!! WAHAHAHAHAS ! BYE


PS : hao xiang ni . ni zhi dao ma ?!!! ting dao le mei you !?!

POCKY addict

omg ! ive been realising i everyday had been eating pocky ! 5 packet a days . didnt know why i love it so much . felt that it could relieve my stress and pain . hais . so tired ! just back from doing history with clarance and kevin . today is the 8th . last month is my happiest day . but now , hais forget about it . dunno wat im still obstinate about . SHOULD LOOK FORWARD LIKE XINWEI ! hais . say le no action .......... gtg . thats all . tired le . oyasumi minna !

fatigue

woke up quite early today and met ashley to have breakfast . had long john silver 3pc chicken for my breakfast ! so fattening . LOL nvm la . once in a while . then ashley nv bring wallet ! and had to go back to her house and take . lols . congrats . seems that the arguement btwn u 2 had ended . hahas then had some talk with her along the way . took 89 and met francis , yixiang , junliang , choonkiat , melvin . lols so qiao . worse is mr tan wei lun sit beside me and i dunno . they also dunno . LOLS ! scare me tot he gg wif us . hahas . then kevin , zankai and kennedy came and meet us . watched terminator !! quite thrilling =) hahas and alot things happened and we simply kept laughing . then went kovan to have pool ! won some round with luck . took 136 with yixiang as im gg to my biao jie house at rivervale crescent to play mahjong . tot can win some $$ but in the end lost . lols . nvm la . take it as entertainment . dunno why . today my post seems boring . lols so shall end here :) nights everybody

GOMMMMMBAAWAAAH !

YOSH ! had quite lot of fun today ! and i really learn alot of maths knowledge :) thanks to yangde and javier . sit with them really can focus and ask if dunno hw to do . although there's some time where we crack jokes at javier . LOL ! but still ok larhhs . can relax awhile . so today whole lesson math also is fun and time flies . then is dnt . finally on development . tis wknd have to finish modelling le ! JY ! then went to BK with yixiang , ashly and darryl to have dinner . keep laughing and laughing !! also dunno why . then clarance kevin and zankai come meet us . but they cont eating while we left 1st . TOMORROW going watch movie ! so long nv watch le ! looking forward to have fun with bunch of perverts =x LOLS shall post tomorrow =) bye bye !

siannnnnnnn

yawn just came back from skool . played basketball , so long nv play le ...... suddenly play till halfway my heart bcome pain again . zzzz . maybe i will die soon . or suddenly just collapse . likdat jiu dunnid think of anything . today so boring ~~~ lucky lesson was pratical so time flew . and went to econ to eat with maany ppl (lazy list out) . and some unhapinness occured . well , its different now . im in no position to care . the MOST FUN PART IS I WAS RAPE !! bunch of brutal guy come rape me _l_ . LOLS ! lost my virginity . finally understood chenghan pain . lols . then went to play basketball while waiting for cl oral . totally screwed it . only gt 28/40 . go in my mind went blank and i kept laughing . and ah meng say i shen jing bing =.= ! well thats all . gtg jogging ! must remain fit ! feel that i getting fatter . ARGGHX !

. JA NA .

came back liao . wahahahahahas ! broke record by 2 sec =.= . nvm la . so long nv run le still can break . not bad liao !

skooling sux

yawns . ystd sleep too much . then late slp so today 8am then wake up . LOLS . didnt even remember today got lesson . lucky my father drive me to skool . thanks . hahas . though im the latest but theres 2 ppl later then me . so dun have to be so guilty . HAIS ! the time seemed to passed so quickly for today . but realised my follish mistake i had made for my eng . lols then it was the lunch programme ! had lots of fun and gt rape by them . zzz . LOLS ! then everybody reveal their "singaporean" action . all take alot of food and went for even 3 round . joker sia ! wat pass is past , i just have to put it down and get on with my life . can't afford to slack anymore . hais . ty xinwei ! i'd straighten my thoughts :) no point being obstinate over it . so yea ! u too uhs ! but i still miss her . doushite............

naichau kamo

had been sleeping whole day for today . such a pig . but i felt so energized now . hadn't been slping for so good liao . ystd 1 slp then today 12.30 wake up . studied chem and fall aslp again till now . YAWN ! cant believe i spent my hols like this . only 1 day !! :( hais . still unable to put down this burden . its so heavy .

met xinwei at compass ystd after she met aloy . good to see her happy . then went to buy bubble tea and she said share cos cant finish . dun even have the freedom to order something . pathetic . then walk halfway out of compass liao that idiot ah mei say take train ! wth . but wat i can do ? so we walk back to take a train to buangkok to find cj and kevin and sylvia . played basketball abit then went to eat with xinwei . suddenly my heart feel very pain again . like cannot breathe ! its the 5th time . hais . then ask her wanna eat wat she said share agn . lols . crap . then in the end she nv even eat . only eat 1 mouth nia . then went back to slack abit and took cab back to RM with xinwei and cj . CJ was like so good to treat us :) TYTY ! then went to my biao jie house at rivervale cres and played PS3 . then went home at cont watching HANA YORI DANGO 2 . japan rux more then korean ! so funny !! then called xinwei to chat as she requested . and likdat my day had ended .

心雨 lyric
橡樹的綠葉啊　白色的竹籬笆
好想告訴我的她　這裡像幅畫
去年的聖誕卡　鏡子裡的鬍渣
畫面開始沒有她　我還在裝傻
說好為我泡花茶　學習擺刀叉
學生宿舍空蕩蕩的家
守著電話　卻等不到她
心裡的雨傾盆而下 也沾不濕她的髮
淚暈開明信片上的牽掛 那傷心原來沒有時差
心裡的雨傾盆而下 卻始終淋不到她
寒風經過院子裡的枝椏 也冷卻了我手中的鮮花
describe my situation right now .

PS : stop it ! i said the reason alrdy . why are u still so obstinate ?
PS : hao xiang niiiii .....

FINISHED CL Olvl

must say it was quite an easy paper . but mcq i felt that it was tricky . all the choice seems reasonable to me =.= . nvm la . alrdy pass le . dun go think about it anymore . later gonna be busy ! meeting yz and others to watch ANGELS & DEMON ! WOOOT !! then later meeting xinwei and maybe jasmine . so gotta go catch a short nap . such a pig . YAWWNNS cya ^.^

PS : do u really dun give a damn ?