FEELING LOW

what is happening to me . just what is happening to me . acting like i dun care is really tiring the hell out of me . DOUSHIYO ! thinking i can get over it , but i failed once and once . my confidence is really draining all my energy . thinking i could persevere like i did last time had proved me wrong ..... so wrong .. i no longer had the energy to persevere . is there really what u sow and u will reap from it ? will it really bear fruits ? its so tiring !!!! but i simply cant . my mind will just show the same images again and again . like never ending ! hais . GOD END IT PLS ! STOP MAKING ME SUFFERING .........


as usual a boring day . went to suki sushi and ate lunch with gangs . and run back to dnt ! LOLS ! eat full full run . pathetic sia . then went to have lunch with natalia and vivian , yixiang pangseh me . knn ! luckily when we reached there saw jermyn and junliang . lols then i jio dean come . so not that weird . LOLS got lots of jokes from dean sia . sibei racist and gossip . lols vivian and natalia lose liao . 3 gu 6 po lose liao . OWN ! then went starbucks with natalia and vivian to slack . dun wish to go home . but it's worse . saw something i dun wish to see but i still saw . maybe its fate . wateva la . then kevin and zankai came to meet us and had some talks then finally left compass point and went to play basketball . well i today sort of on form today . then took cab home . suddenly heart pain agn . HAIS ! maybe its my retribution . thats why god is doing all this shit to me ... hais . tired le . gtg ! hoping miracle would happen tmr . maybe heaven would take pity on me and miracle would happen ?! "BRRRRRRIIINKKK" !

PS . ILY