stressed

i really cant take it anymore !! arghhhhhhhx ! its so cold . so cold that i dun feel any warmth here anymore . do u seriously i will lie to u about where i go ? i just fell aslp on bus i nv realised my hp rang and u say i deliberately dun wanna pick up ur call . and for goddamn it .. take public transport also need time right ? u said u can reached woodland from here by 1h15mins ? craps . u mean u drive there by car ba ? even if u take 965 from sengkang interchange u also cant reach there by 1hr15mins . take train also impossible .. called home ask bro got cook anot he said no1 at home . so i called mom informing her im eating outside . and u called and i also told you about im eating outside . u said u are meeting sis to have dinner but did u inform me ? NO . im the last to know . and you are the one who said ok and allow me to go . do u even know how tired i am after that ? CRAP !!! u are the one who do not trust me and even stalked me on where i go to see whether i got bluff u anot . and u said u treat me better then bro ?? i tried to earn ur trust and sis too . but u all are just .. ARRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHXXX !!!!!!! u make it like all is my fault when im not in fault . term 1 when i did quite well did u really encourage me ? u just felt its my part . mid year i just met with some setback and both of you did not even ask a single shit of my life . just about my damn result . cmon , u have the eyes to see that im studying really really hard during that time . if u really feel that joey is ur hope .. then place all ur hope on her then . sorry to dissapoint you . but im just felt really tired .. of all that shit ! when i stay at xiao gu house . i felt really cared for . thats the warmth i wanted . from today onwards . im not going to cry ... NO MORE !!!!!!!!!